Hey everyone. We're coming to you live from the hospital room. Christi resting in her bed and I'm on the couch bed trying to get some sleep but I am too awake right now. The current status is that they have begun inducing Christi. It could be anytime from lunchtime tomorrow to tomorrow night, so we're really just playing the waiting game.
Everything is still pretty surreal. I guess it won't really set in until everything starts happening. I'm a mix of excited, scared, nervous, worried, and anxious. It's really hard to describe. I feel like I'm watching a movie and that everything isn't real. You always imagine these events happening in your life, but now that it is actually happening it doesn't seem real. I'm very excited to be a dad and I cannot wait to finally see Landon's face.
It's weird that today I was at work and everything was normal. I woke up, did my normal morning routine, did everything at work that I needed to do, etc. Now, on the same day, I'm lying awake in the hospital writing about what it feels like to almost be a dad. It's crazy. It's like tomorrow I am going to wake up and everything is going to completely change. It's exciting and scary and I'm ready for it to happen. Of course, I'll probably not so excited at 3am when Landon is awake and I have to put him to sleep, but I think it will be worth it.
It's almost impossible to describe all of the feelings I am having right now. I have so many thoughts and ideas racing through my mind that I can't type fast enough to write it all out. I'm sure this post is going to read worse than my medicine induced coma of a Thanksgiving post I just had - short, choppy sentences that don't really flow and don't seem to have a real point. Regardless, I feel the need to just write about what I am feeling so that maybe one day when he is old enough Landon will be able to read about how excited I was to finally meet him and then maybe he can understand the immense love that I have for him and always will.
Our nurse tonight has been very helpful and nice. We like her a lot. Christi was not looking forward to the IV but she was a trooper and is doing well. She is currently a little more than 1cm dilated, but she was like that at our appointment today so there hasn't been much change so far. Hopefully throughout the night the medicine will kick and everything will go smoothly. It's eerily quiet here tonight. I can hear a train off in the distance and the pounding of the rain on the window, but other than that there isn't much going on. It's almost like the calm before the storm. I'm sure tomorrow is going bring a lot of rain, so to speak.
Well, I know it's time to go to sleep when I start bringing out the cheesy puns in my blog posts. Keep checking back for updates. I'm sure it will be more random posts.
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